Sparkly!

Well 2011 hasn’t been my year. At all. At every step there have been failures, disappointments and failed relationships. I’ve always been someone who hasn’t given up on what or whom I truly love, trust or believe in. Having said that, this year has been tiring, gnawing at my patience, bit by bit. And just when I was about to give up, I realized that everything happens for a reason. A reason that you may not understand at first, but in the larger scheme of things seems insignificant.

Ten months into the year, and things are finally looking up for me. When the people closest to you shatter your trust to dust, there’s nothing you can do but reminisce about the times when things where better. Well this obviously is not taking into account the days when you feel nothing is ever going to improve ( much like in a soppy movie), well I have to say, a part of me will always be terribly filmy. On a more serious note, I tried; I gave it all I had till I realized that I was talking to a deaf person.  Or that is what I thought when I realized my patience and trust has been battered to bits.

And then came into sight the silver lining that had hitherto been MIA, when I realized that when you love someone, you come around to finding a way. Forgiveness is the toughest thing to go through with, but sometimes it’s the only way out. Compromises are a part of life and the glue that holds the picture in place. Second chances aren’t granted without hesitation, and bad experiences will always linger in your mind, but all you can hope for is for newer, happier memories to push them out, wishing them to fade with time. And when you love someone so dearly, it’s worth the effort. It’s worth the effort to clear out the rubble and lay those blocks again, piece by piece. Because sometimes, loving someone means never giving up.

There are times when the world around seems to be joining forces only to make sure you stumble and fall at every step. Well today, I can safely say that I’m in my happy place, in a sheltered bubble, where I know everything will magically fall into place. I’ve always tried to be responsible for my own happiness or sorrow, but I have to admit, when someone takes that extra effort to make sure there’s a stupid smile plastered to your face, well I’m just glad- to say the least. I’ve never been a girly-girl but then again who am I to come in the way of a fairytale ending. So I’ll smile and try to live in the moment, enjoying every second of the love and attention that’s coming my way, knowing that I’m being blind if I think nothing’s ever going to go wrong, but let’s just say that, for the time being, I’m going to push those thoughts aside, ask the pragmatic me to shut up, and live the good times. Amen.